Secondhand Vibrations

What if my vibration is impacting everything else? The less energy I have the less that happens.

We do not store images, or sounds, or feelings. We store vibration. Each memory is a wave. Each wave is a culmination of vibrations

There is no such thing as positive and negative, only relativity to vibration. Anything we perceive as negative is only something that makes us farther from achieving this equilibrium. And although negative thoughts do not make bad things happen. If we give off a negative vibe, that vibe affects the vibrations of everything around it. Thus giving things around us a balance that is not in tune with our own.

As I once mentioned, I cannot perceive and process at the same time. For I can only process that which has already been perceived.

Or now that I have found my original thought: “You can’t experience and transcribe at the same time. All I want to do is get all of this emotion out of me in the form of beauty, and yet I don’t even know what this is yet. I’ve never felt it before, never gone through this before.”

• JH– I’m glad I lived in my own imagination for most of my childhood.

• JH– Its funny. I used to watch students wait for sandwiches at the dining hall and almost everyone was on their phones. Busy. And yet doing nothing. Its like if stimulus and emotions can be found through an intimate object there is no desire to create it. I remember how awkward it was when I was younger and the first one to homeroom, there was this need to look busy so id go through my assignment book, etc.

• JH– But now I fill my empty time with what other people are doing in their time, or what they have already done. Secondhand vibrations. Thanks social media

—–This is just another reason why I feel that human language and preserved forms of occurances actually inhibit us. We experience someone else’s experience. Even journaling causes me to recall my past in the light that it was originally documented. Rose colored glasses.

An image is not a memory. It is a part of one. An image without an experience lacks feeling…and yet it does not. Colors of the photo, how it was taken, the amount of light says something about how that thin feels to us. Language, lyrics, songs. Recomposed vibrational patterns. Turned into different mediums. Yet containing the same amount of energy.

If we have no goals can we have motivation? Is motivation a wave that is tuned to a goal?

[And is that why a picture taken while inspired is different than one taken bored? Is that why a perfect song or image can bring us to tears? It is an overall vibration which matches one that we recognize, even though its in different form?

One of our greatest flaws is that we try to tie vibrations to forms of matter. However the waves are only ever moving around these things. Holding on to the object itself will not preserve its vibration, and eventually we will notice that it is no longer the same.]

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Its like I can see the whole picture and its too much to begin to explain. For to explain something you must break it down and put it in an order. But I can only see the whole picture now. I do not yet understand it.

And I cant compress it, other than to simply just live in it and be the compressor of…. everything.

But when I try to explain it, I lose most of my vision to a single focal point. And I cant explain that focal point enough to progress past it without knowing and understanding this whole picture. See where my predicament lies?

The thing is Im pretty good at taking something and applying it in all types of situations, my huge guess and check game. Guess this thing, and if everything else makes sense because of it, you win. [I wonder if it matters how far into the pattern I get before my answer is proven incomplete. Not wrong, just missing pieces.

I thought I was right there….so many times. And perhaps I was. But I wasn’t aware of it. Because instead of sticking to my belief in that question, I assumed that I was correct and moved on to the next question. Or I got bored with it. I tied my belief into matter and so it couldn’t flow freely. It didn’t move with me. The belief could only hold the particles for so long before they shifted. And so somewhere in a shedding of layers, the object changes its vibration]

Anyways, I’m just saying it’s a really difficult puzzle at any given point of its existence. Solving it in a constant stream of points is just about impossible.

And yet that is life isn’t it? Trying to solve this puzzle when nothing ever stays the same. And if much it does stay the same for too long, it will all change at once.

And maybe if youre lucky youll find a pattern to the seemingly random changes. And youll know what pieces to learn before they shift, and youll know what part of the puzzle is about to fade away. You’ll know which new pieces will soon need to be made. Youll recognize bits of these pieces that you have never seen before and be able to put them into place quickly. That takes a lot of monitoring of a lot of pieces to recognize though.

Well, I have no idea why I just started pondering the puzzles of life, but I appreciate what jumbled analogy I made for it.

Something about growth and repair as a living organism, and the parts that experienced a moment may be different than the ones replaying its vibrational impact back to you. The song may be out of order, you may miss a note, you may add parts from a different moment.

Memories are like a song, they are like a painting, a movie, anything that we consider to be art. Memories are the capturing of an essence. They are the ability to experience a specific time/moment, a specific vibrational pattern again, without the presence of the objects. The form may change but the waves still impact one another in the same fashion in a specific example of reference.

Anyways, time is weird, you cant look back too much or you wont notice everything changing around you. You cant always just look ahead or you wont understand where you are headed or have any base knowledge of these incoming new pieces, you wont know what they were at the beginning so you cant know how to begin finishing it.

You just have to go with the flow. Recognize new things that come to you, learn how the pieces fit together over time. Keep the image of what was so that you know what you are working towards, stop pretending that you know what form it will someday take, and start appreciating each change that occurs, each piece that comes and goes, and learn as much as you can while you share their moments.

How many ways are there to replicate a specific wave pattern, Or interaction of vibrations in an experience or feeling? Its nice to know that once the moment is gone that you can still feel that same way again, with different objects in different positions but still creating that same piece.

And what makes up a single memory? Where does it start and where does it end? Can we only see the patterns if we look for them in those clips of the past or do we need what came before and after as well?

Oh my. Waves and Wind and Sound and Movement.

…Hot and cold, back and forth, start and finish. If and then. Passing through or stopping at… or moving with.

….or passing around?